Did you ever have that feeling when you just can’t get out of your head, thinking of someone. Remembering every word they said, reliving every moment together. Overthinking & analyzing every single bit of conversation or text, creating your own reality and spinning things out of control? I bet you did. We all did.
You meet someone – maybe there were fireworks and deep connection from the start or maybe you just had drunken one night stand with them, but somehow they managed to catch your attention. Things progress, you get talking, get to know each other, reveal your secrets, expose your soul a little or maybe a lot. You become friends, you become lovers, everything seems great.
That can last for months, years or weeks – the thing is you never know how long it will last. The one thing you know is how you feel. And the truth is, whether you choose to acknowledge that or not, your feelings will always come out.
So maybe sometimes you meet someone who seems perfect, they could be ticking your boxes but there is something missing, and you know it. But still, you proceed to get involved with that person because maybe you don’t want to be alone, maybe you like the attention, maybe you think the feelings will come, maybe you should give everyone a chance. So you convince yourself that this is right, you should go for it because that person is just great and it’s all you wanted for so long. They treat you right, make you feel wanted & secure. But deep down you are missing something, the attraction, the spark, the passion. And let me tell you this – if that’s what you are missing please don’t invest your time.
Because life is too short to go for people who don’t light a fire inside you.
Life is too short to be stuck in mediocre relationships that don’t ignite your soul. Maybe they give you flowers without occasion, maybe they make you lunches to work or take on vacations.. but if you don’t feel butterflies when they kiss you, if you don’t want to run to them with your newest idea, if you don’t look at them and think ‘wow I am lucky to walk by your side’, if they are not the hottest person in the room to you – maybe it’s time to spend some time alone. I am guilty of putting myself in situations where I tried to convince myself ‘yes, this is what I want, the feelings will come’ and let me tell you this – they never did. I treat every encounter or relationship as a lesson and try to learn from it. But oh boy, seems that some lessons I just can’t quite grasp. So this is the time to finally make a promise to myself and stick to it. Make a conscious effort to put ego aside and focus purely on feelings. Because they never lie, they never fail.
Once I read somewhere that you should never make decisions when you are happy or sad – why? Because your judgement is clouded and perhaps you are not making the best choice for you.
Maybe this post sounds a bit sad or negative but it comes from a good place. It comes from a place of realization and inner peace. Sometimes things have to be said out loud/written down to be really acknowledged and understood. At least in my case 🙂
So here’s to better choices in the future, to following your feelings and intuition because that’s all you can trust! When it comes to love we can’t be too rational, calculating potential profits of the relationship or trying to meet other people’s expectations. We are allowed to lose it a bit, immerse yourself in the feeling. If you want to, go for it! Fearlessly walk through life with your head high and know your worth. Live your best life. Set your standards high and don’t let people tell you otherwise – because trust me, when you’ll meet the right person, you’ll know. Someone asked me recently, when do you know someone is right for you, long term. When do you know you are in love? And I said
When you know, you know.
You just can’t explain it. It feels different for everyone. And nothing can beat that feeling.
I understand a lot of backpackers are really young, inexperienced and so on but this is the perfect opportunity to practice your skills, write a good CV/cover letter, show potential employers WHY you are the one for the job. The backpacker market is super competitive & saturated but there is enough jobs for everyone! If you want a good job that pays fair, boss treats you well, you gotta put some effort! There are numbers of websites, forums dedicated to finding eligible work. Spend some time thinking about what kind of job you want, what are your skills and expectations – do you just want 88 days or experience something new? Don’t adapt the negative attitude that farm work is hell – if you think that you are already setting yourself up for a failure.
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